THE TRUTH IS, I MISS MY PILE* HORRIBLY. IF YOU SENSE WHAT THAT PILE MEANT TO ME* YOU WILL TAKE PITY* AND WILL NOT * WHEN I TOUCH YOU BECAUSE YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THAT YOU MIGHT HELP ME WEAN* AND THAT I REACH OUT FROM THE  MOST TENDEREST* HOPE AND GREIF*. IF YOU SENSE MY BODY* AND THESE CONDITIONS* YOU WILL NOT SHY* AWAY BUT EVEN GIMME GIMME AND I WILL GLADLY GIVE WHATEVER THOUGH IT* IS, I'M SURE, MUCH DIMINISHED AS I HAVE THIS GREAT CAVITY* WHERE ONCE MY PILE  CHILLAXED BEING THE LOVELIEST MOST ADORABLE SEXIEST FREAK* WHO EVER EXISTED- TO ME, THAT IS, AT THE TIME IN ITS PLACE OH GOD, OH GOD.